Happy Birthday Mama


Nov 4 Satanic Revels sexual oral, anal, vaginal 7-17 (female) This is the core’s Mama’s birthday today it’s also a satanic holiday. She has been crying all day. She had no clue wh…

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Happy Birthday Mama


Nov 4 Satanic Revels sexual oral, anal, vaginal 7-17 (female)

This is the core’s Mama’s birthday today it’s also a satanic holiday.

She has been crying all day. She had no clue why. I did though. I was there the day that the she was sacrificed. I don’t know all the gory details. The holy spirit shows some things and other things are felt,smelled, tasted, or seen in the spirit. ( I just now realized the core is seven years old…wow!)

Any way some how fire was involved and the mother was holding the child. This ritual was held on the baby’s first birthday as are most of theses things done. There is a burn on the core’s neck and the satanist’s attached three demons to me…the name were SHADRACH, MESHACH, and ABEDNEGO,then they named me The Buddha man. I am the keeper of the soul and impart wisdom. but the System misspelled the name of The name Budda Man. But because they had attached the demon’s I was not able to  help and was easily manipulated and the other’s inside thought I was cult loyal. I loved the bible but all I ever got was head knowledge. Until the day it was revealed by the holy spirit what had happened and the three demons were removed and I renounced satanism and I changed my name to David because I love Psalm’s and he wrote most of them. So now I am able to be the Keeper of the soul and the protector I am meant to be.

surviving and living is the sweetest revenge in the world…~David

 

The ding dong My core personality


It turns out it has been a year since my last post and the ding dong seems to know what she is doing after all.

Turns out it is I My system is programed! Shit,fuck,damn! All these years in and out of nut houses. Over medicated.My core personality is seven years old..the rest of us are no older then 17. I have several programs in place that i don’t know how to get rid of. Full moon, I can’t tell time, no one in my System has ever aged…the body will be 50 soon.

How did this happen? How did I not know? I have known about this crap for five years now and it has taken until ..well  let’s just say it’s like going through the grieving process…denial,anger,depression,fear.I am not sure if that is one but I will throw that in here…then acceptance that you have been touched by pure unadulterated evil and were split on purpose is demented!

That’s all for now.

The Dingdong


The Dingdong blew me away          yesterday.

I told her that I had fired my Pain doctor and found another.

I was in so much pain I said If I owned a gun I would put it to my heart and pull the trigger.

I can not hold a book, a pen, I had to give my dog away because It hurts too bad to walk and play with him. She came over and massaged my hands and wrists! the relief was incredible. I am on Medicare and Medicaid and I have tried to get Massage therapy, but I was laughed at by the receptionist when I would state my medical insurance. She will be looking into getting me some help with Massage therapy. I believe in prayer, and I had prayed before calling for a therapist and this is who God sent…and why I have stuck with her…and kept on praying for her and me to be able to work together for healing.

                                                       ~Col

 

All is well


This is my journey from darkness to light.

Where it goes nobody knows, not even I. One second at a time.,Week, Month, Time is not my friend.

So here we go…

Good morning, This is new to me blogging.So I think this will be good for my head.I have a new therapist and she is a certified dingdong. She has a Masters in social work and she means well….but she has no clue as to what she is doing with me and my System of Self States.I have to see her in order to get my medications. so….I often lead her down rabbit trails for 45 minutes to pass the time.I have DID and I am SRA….and she admitted that when she was a kid she had a best friend who’s dad was a holocaust survivor and she could not believe that people could be so cruel to humans’….she is terrified of… me? what I will reveal?….I referred to her a blog and a book to read.


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